Sophie B. Hawkins Album

In our lives
Love has hid her face to save her heart from breaking
Into feeling
In your eyes
Joy gives way to pain
Save your tears for the rain
Visions stop at the ceiling
Without each other
What would we be
We long to feel free
And in our dreams
We see
What we need

I hardly recognize myself it's such a strange thing
To find another woman walking in my blue jeans
I've come so far and I've been so long away from home
I'm like a photograph who's image is still changing
The letter that I never sent to you explaining
All I want is a place for my heart to belong

In our minds
We have weapons and cures for disease
And a light year in the instant that it takes us to conceive
Without each other
Where will we go
Someday we will know
And if we want to
We will grow
Closer and closer together

I hardly recognize myself it's such a strange thing...
To find another woman walking in my blue jeans
I've come so far and I've been so long away from home
I'm like a photograph whose image is still changing
The letter that I never sent to you explaining

I'm tired of waking up
I'm sick of rolling off the bus
I want to sleep forever
In the lies I've made
The checks have bounced
But the bills got paid so far
On the Jaguar
I call myself
The lines get crossed
On the short wave
I get cut off
'Cause I can't behave
Very well
You think you know me
But you don't know my way around
Hell
Is just below me
And that's why I keep falling down

I'm praying to resist temptation
Staying within my constellation
Weighing every intonation
Betraying alienation

I quit sobriety
I joined up with insanity
I want to pull the lever on the hatch I built
Escaping truth and avoiding guilt
So far
In the family car I get away
The border's nearer than I thought
I'll drive all day and I won't get caught
Anyway
The light is fading
And I haven't had time to call
You must be waiting
For someone whose engines
Won't stall

I'm feeling the strings of your rejection
Kneeling in the wrong direction
Sealing my heart to your neglection

I want your hand
Across my belly
I want your breasts
Upon my back
I want your pain
To rip right through me
I am your death
You are my wrath

I'll take your hand
Beyond the threshold
I'll take your gifts
As art of fact
I'll take your tongue
Right down to my throat
You are my loss
I am your map

I find your eyes
They give me shelter
I find your lips
They give me peace
I find your need to take me over

Open my heart
I'll tell you stories
Open my legs
I'll read your mind
Open my mail
I'll tell you're forty
You are my fate
I'm your design

I'll lead you o'er
The city burning
I'll lead you home
To Provincetown
I'll lead you down
The soft dunes yearning
You're my vision
I am your sound

I long to be
Your handsome woman
I long to feel
The crease of time
I long to free
Medusa's stallion
I'm your water
You are mine

I need to carve
Your face in pavement
I need to die
In your embrace
I need to keep
A grave engagement
You're my power

Mmm my best friend has a little car
She can take off anywhere, anytime she wants
And if you ask me mostly
Where would I rather be
I'll tell you up and down the avenue
In the passenger seat.

My best friend
Has fuzzy hair
My best friend
Walks with her tail in the air
My best friend
Makes me feel full as the moon
I'm saving all my money and I'm gonna take her to
Israel soon.

Mmm my best friend has a little house
She gave me my own keys and I go Anytime I want
And if you ask me mostly
Where would I rather be
I'll tell you sitting on the window sill
When she's close to me.
(I worried I was isolated now I'm glad I waited
For the real thing)

My best friend
Has fuzzy hair
My best friend
Walks with her tail in the air
My best friend
Makes me feel full as the moon
I'm saving all my money and I'm gonna take her to
Israel soon
My best friend
She smells like patchouli and cigarettes and the street
My best friend
Sometimes she makes eyes at my feet
My best friend
You'd think we were from the same womb
We don't like talking in the morning
And we dream all afternoon.

Wear big clothes and you're alright
Don't let the spin make you uptight
Life's a Saturday morning cartoon
We're like balloons we're like balloons
We come as one and we stand on line
We don't mind waiting 'cause we're on our own time
We don't know what the meaning could be

Oh I
Never knew
I was unkind
'Til I met you
So how
Can I believe
You will suffer with me
If I should ask you to

Bare the weight of me
Bottom belly legs chest hands feet face of me
Stare into space because of me
Dare to let nobody take the place of me
Why has it been so long
I long to be the one
You have a handle on

For I
Never cared 
To be led
Beyond my despair
And how
Strange to now see
Crumbs of deceit
Following me
So how can you

Bare the weight of me
Bottom belly legs chest hands feet face of me
Stare into space because of me
Dare to let nobody take the place of me 
Why has been so long
I long to be the one
You

Nightmare bring me to the dawn
I must ride your body on
Deep inside me I know you can't hide me from harm
I'm the secret that you bear
Born of anger and despair
Who will strangle me
Who will untangle my hair

Come to me I can see
Through the holes in your eyes
When I scream out in terror
You're the one by my side
Run to me strong and pure
As the monster's child
We've been captured for a lifetime
But we're free when we're wild

Sleep my little darling
Don't
You
Cry for mamma
She's all gone
Nightmare came and took her in his arms
Find your dark horse
And ride on your course
Through the storm

Lay me down you can see
Through the rain in my eyes
That I've no more to lose
And I've nothing to hide
Playing in midnight fields
Of dreams exiled
We are strangers in the city

(You can do it baby... you know you can do it baby)
You were always the darkest childe
Making all the grown ups sweat
Driving both your parents to distraction
With the sweetness in your head

You're the one who raped your superintendent
On the rooftop tied his hands and feet to the fence
You sucked his cock and fucked the man immobile
You paid your daddy's rent

You are the darkest childe
You spread your angel wings
And fly through the night into the dreams of ancient ruins
And make them sing

Lost lover shameless girl
Bury me in your sultry curls
I'm in the wilderness alone
Let me kiss you until the dawn
Let me put your wilde things on
I've been howling in the fog so long

You are the darkest childe
You have a sacred duty to perform upon this blessed Earth
You must cradle those thoughts of the lustful lonely
Inside your wicked warmth
And you must
Get off

You are the darkest childe
And evil will never stop you
And people will mock you and try
To pop pop pop you into the market place where you cannot be bought
Understood you will be missed
There will be sadness
For the darkest childe

So long

So long to the darkest childe
Waiting in patient anguish
For the scent of someone's wilderness
To howl against the smog screen
Of accolade smoothies
Goose bump burgers and Christ-like fries
How long can this world keep fucking itself up the ass
Wonders never cease
How long would it have to be
Anyway
Long enough to cause hysteria
Wide enough to cause great pain
I am in the wilderness alone

Oh god

Let me kiss you until the dawn
Let me put your wild things on

I wanted to be loved
I wanted to be known
I wanted to be held
I wanted to be thrown
Into this world
I wanted to be your little girl
I wanted to be shy
I wanted to be dumb
I wanted to be blind
I wanted to be young
As a child
I wanted to feel myself
Worthwhile
You shot like star dust through me
And I wanted you to be
All that I would ever need
And my trial
Is leaving now while I'm still strong
I wanted you to be the one
Though you knew it all along

I walk alone
God speed your love
God take me home
I walk alone
God be my judge
God still my soul

I tried to be your wife
I tried to be your friend
I tried to take my life
I tried to understand
How I failed
In your eyes I can't prevail
There's nothing more that I can do
But carry on without you
Finding love in spite of truth
And I sail the seas of destiny's song
In my heart I may hold on
But you'll reach and I'll be gone

I walk alone
God speed your love
God take me home
I walk alone
God be my judge
God still my soul

I walk alone
In God I trust
Where I belong
I walk alone
In God I must

I met a woman from another time
I couldn't think
But a drink from her eyes
Was like water to wine
She wet my dreams with her distinctive mind
I search the desert for a treasure
And a measure of life denied
I'm driven by cars and guitars and her voice
Ripping up and down my spine
And now I'm giving my life for her sight

To be mine
And in her presence
My fate unwinds
For when her essence
Draws me too near
I can taste her with tears
On my tongue
Like the sun
In my mouth.

I met a man who kicked my front door down
He blew in with the Santa Ana winds
And a half cocked hound
He fits my body like a one horse town
And I was drunk like a vagabond on his street
And I lay face down
And I rode his joy like a child on a merry-go-round
I was young in his eyes
I was sweet on his thighs
I was profound
I was shot like a free bird in flight
To the ground.

I woke this morning from a deadly dream
He was my lover he was my filler
He was my chocolate-colored killer
He was me
I'm built to run
My will is to deceive
But you penetrate severely
I am walking insecurely
On my knees
And I will wait through Winter, Spring and Summer
If you'll Fall in love with me
I will dance so slowly
You will hardly know I
Breathe
From Rome
To Madrid
To Paris

On the breeze
My scent will find you
Lost by degrees
From time to time you'll
Sing
With my lips
Or my hands
On your hips
Or my tongue
Like the sun

I have no confidence
And I can't see why I should
But I could do most anything for you
And you know I would

I try too hard
And then I give up way too easily
I'm the runner up inside of you
And you're the winner inside of me

Lose your way
And I will follow
Here today
And here tomorrow
Like my freedom I know
I'll never let you go

I still wish on the evening star
And I s'pose I always will
Every child loses something
A whole life can't fulfill
And when you cry I feel the sky
Burst open in my veins
If loving you makes a slave of me
Then I'll spend my whole life in chains

Lose your way
And I will follow
Here today
And here tomorrow
Like my freedom I know
I'll never let you go.
Walk the line
I'll walk inside you
Change your mind
Let your love decide you
It's the reason I know

A silent woman parts her lips
To speak before she ought
She makes a cross of her emotions
And a panic of her thoughts
Out of her mouth she comes in rages
Like Vesuvius in heat
She runs ahead of her intentions
Though she's programmed for defeat

By the hunger and the hatred
The prostitution of her nature
She has given and forgiven for to give her
Kunt forgave her
To the longing for a loving hand
Or fist or cock or spike
But you know you cannot reach her
'Til she's taken back her life

A lonely child of fourteen
Finds her future in a drum
She plays for present day omissions
And for whom she must become
Out of her passion breaks the stillness
Of a solitary mind
A strict devotion to the rhythm
With a substitute for time

She looks out of her window
At the changes in the sky
She never wants to leave her sanctuary
Bedroom, books and lies
But she's grown up on the outside
With an instinct for the pain
That drives the men inside her wild
And women wanting her insane

Both lovers bring their cameras
To the beach on New Year's eve
They are expecting nothing other
Than to see what they believe
Four feet walking toward the lighthouse
In the freezing winter rain
She flashes stately in the distance
Humming her somnolent refrain

"You are here now, you are here now
There is nothing left to fear now"
With each step the sunk is sinking
Though the truth is less unclear now
They have won a thousand battles
They have wrung their own demise
Now they are standing still and weeping
For a love they can't despise

A silent woman and a lonely child
Have nowhere else to go
But to the lighthouse in December
Before the New Year takes its toll
They have found inside each other
What they had lost within themselves
Now they are bonded to forever
In their search for something else

Generations like the water
Shape the face of every stone
A pedigree's an invitation
To discover you're alone
Out in the kitchen or the courtyard
Or the bedroom or the bank
It only takes a fateful moment
To become the one you thank

And light shall lift them
Higher and higher
And dreams shall carry them on
And loss shall lead them
To life's final hour

I want to walk beside you
Nowhere that I have ever been
And of the dreams inside you
I am the one you have not seen

You make me feel a school girl
Restless to take your point of view
Into my mystery world
Finding that one is more than two

I feel abused
By my own mind
I can't refuse
An offer to make love to you

How come your words affect me
I have not wanted to be bound
And yet I may be set free
Before the meaning was the sound

In your refrain
I hear the chords of love in vain
How can I help but call your name

From dusk 'til dawn
I'm haunted
By your demon song