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05/15/2001 |
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2. | Eon Blue Apocalypse |
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4. | Mantra |
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12. | Triad |
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Wear the grudge like a crown
Of negativity
Calculate what we will
Will not tolerate
Desperate to control
All and everything
Unable to forgive
Your scarlet letterman
Clutch it like a cornerstone
Otherwise it all comes down
Justify denials and
Grip 'em to the lonesome end
Clutch it like a cornerstone
Otherwise it all comes down
Terrified of being wrong
Ultimatum prison cell
Saturn ascends
Choose one or ten
Hang on or be
Humbled again
Humbled again
Clutch it like a cornerstone (crescendo)
Otherwise it all comes down
Justify denials and
Grip 'em to the lonesome end
Saturn ascends
Comes 'round again
Saturn ascends
The one, the ten
Ignorant to
The damage done
Wear the grudge like a crown
Of negativity
Calculate what you will
Will not tolerate
Desperate to control
All and everything
Unable to forgive
Your scarlet letterman
Wear the grudge like a crown (crescendo)
Desperate to control
Unable to forgive
And sinking deeper
Defining
Confining
Sinking deeper (sometimes says "AND sinking deeper" in concert)
Controlling
Defining
And we're sinking deeper
Saturn comes back around
To show you everything
Lets you choose what you will
Will not see and then
Drags you down like a stone
Or lifts you up again
Spits you out like a child
Light and innocent
Saturn comes back around
Lifts you up like a child
Or drags you down like a stone
To consume you 'til you
Choose to
Let this go
Choose to
Let this go
Give away the stone
Let the ocean take and transmutate
This cold and fated anchor
Give away the stone
Let the waters kiss and transmutate
These leaden grudges into gold
(gold... gold... gold... gold... gold...
gold... gold... gold... gold...) (decrescendo)
Let go (crescendo)
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go (crescendo)
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A groan of tedium escapes me
Startling the fearful
Is this a test?
It has to be
Otherwise I can't go on
Draining patience
Drain vitality
This paranoid, paralyzed vampire act's a little old
But I'm still right here
Giving blood, keeping faith
And I'm still right here
But I'm still right here
Giving blood, keeping faith
And I'm still right here
Gonna wait it out...
gonna wait it out...
be patient!..
If there were no rewards to reap
No loving embrace to see me through
This tedious path I've chosen here
I certainly would've walked away
By now
Gonna wait it out!
If there were no desire to heal
The damaged and broken met along
This tedious path I've chosen here
I certainly would've walked away
By now
And I still may
I still may
Be patient
Be patient
Be patient
I must keep reminding myself of this
I must keep reminding myself of this
I must keep reminding myself of this
I must keep reminding myself of this
If there were no rewards to reap
No loving embrace to see me through
This tedious path I've chosen here
I certainly would've walked away
By now
And I still may
And I still may
And I still may
And I...
Gonna wait it out
Gonna wait it out
Wait it out
Gonna wait it out
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I know the pieces fit
'Cause I watched them fall away
Mildewed and smouldering
Fundamental differing
Pure intention juxtaposed
Will set two lovers' souls in motion
Disintegrating as it goes
Testing our communication
The light that feuled our fire then
Has a burned a hole between us so
We cannot see to reach an end
Crippling our communication
I know the pieces fit
'Cause I watched them tumble down
No fault, none to blame
It doesn't mean I don't desire to
Point the finger, blame the other
Watch the temple topple over
To bring the pieces back together
Rediscover communication
The poetry
That comes from the squaring off between
And the circling is worth it
Finding beauty in the dissonance
There was a time that the pieces fit
But I watched them fall away
Mildewed and smouldering
Strangled by our coveting
I've done the math enough to know
The dangers of our second guessing
Doomed to crumble unless we grow
And strengthen our communication
Cold silence has
A tendency to
Atrophy any
Sense of compassion
Between supposed brothers
Between supposed lovers
(sometimes says "lovers" the first
time and then "brothers" in concert)
I know the pieces fit
I know the pieces fit
I know the pieces fit
I know the pieces fit
I know the pieces fit
I know the pieces fit
I know the pieces fit
I know the pieces fit (crescendo)
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So familiar
And overwhelmingly warm
This one, this form I hold now
Embracing you, this reality here
This one, this form I hold now
So wide-eyed and hopeful
Wide-eyed and hopefully wild
We barely remember
What came before this precious moment
Choosing to be here
Right now
Hold on, stay inside
This body holding me
Reminding me that I am not alone in
This body makes me feel
Eternal, all this pain is an illusion
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We barely remember
Who or what came before this precious moment
We are choosing to be here
Right now
Hold on, stay inside
In this holy reality
In this holy experience
Choosing to be here in
This body
This body holding me
Be my reminder here that I am not alone in
This body
This body holding me
Feeling eternal, all this pain is an illusion
Alive
In this holy reality
In this holy experience
Choosing to be here in
This body
This body holding me
Be my reminder here that I am not alone in
This body
This body holding me
Feeling eternal, all this pain is an illusion
Twirling 'round with this familiar parabol
Spinning, weaving 'round each new experience
Recognize this as a holy gift and
Celebrate this chance to be
Alive and breathing
A chance to be
Alive and breathing
This body holding me
Reminds me of my own mortality
Embrace this moment, remember
We are eternal, all this pain is an illusion
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Suck and suck
Suckin' up all you can suckin' up all you can suck and suck
And workin' up under my patience like a little tick
Fat little parasite
Suck me dry
My friend is bruised and borrowed
You thieving bastards, you have
Turned my blood cold and bitter
Beat my compassion black and blue
Hope this is what you wanted
Hope this is what you had in mind
'Cause this is what you're gettin'
I hope you're chokin'
I hope you choke on this
I hope you're chokin'
I hope you choke on this
Takin' all you can takin' all I can we can take
Takin' all you can takin' all you can we can take
Got nothing left to give to you
Blood suckin' parasitic little
Tick suckin' parasitic little
Blood suckin' parasitic little
Tick
Take what you want and then go
Hope this is what you wanted
Hope this is what you had in mind
'Cause this is what you're gettin'
Suck me dry... Suck me dry... Suck me dry...
Suck me dry, baby
Suck
Suck me dry
Suck me dry
Suck
Suck me dry
Is this what you wanted?
Is this what you had in mind?
Is this what you wanted?
'Cause this is what you're gettin'
I hope
I hope
I hope
You choke
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Black then white are
All I see
In my infancy
Red and yellow then came to be
Reaching out to me
Lets me see
As below, so above and beyond, I imagine
Drawn beyond the lines of reason
Push the envelope
Watch it bend
Overthinking
Overanalyzing
Separates the body from the mind
Withering my intuition
Missing opportunities and I must
Feed my will to feel thy moment
Drawing way outside the lines
Black then white are
All I see
In my infancy
Red and yellow then came to be
Reaching out to me
Lets me see
There is
So much
More and
Beckons me
To look through to these
Infinite possibilities
As below, so above and beyond, I imagine
Drawn outside the lines of reason
Push the envelope
Watch it bend
Overthinking
Overanalyzing
Separates the body from the mind
Withering my intuition
Leaving opportunities behind
Feed my will to feel this moment
Urging me to cross the line
Reaching out to embrace the random
Reaching out to embrace whatever may come
I embrace my
Desire to
I embrace my
Desire to
Feel the rythym, to
Feel connected
Enough to step aside and
Weep like a widow, to
Feel inspired, to
Fathom the power, to
Witness the beauty, to
Bathe in the fountain, to
Swing on the spiral, to
Swing on the spiral, to
Swing on the spiral of
Our divinity and
Still be a human
With my feet upon the ground
I lose myself between the sounds
And open wide to suck it in
I feel it move across my skin
I'm reaching up and reaching out
I'm reaching for the random, for
Whatever will bewilder me
Whatever will bewilder me
And following our will and wind
We may just go where no one's been
We'll ride the spiral to the end
May just go where no one's been
Spiral out
Keep going
Spiral out
Keep going
Spiral out
Keep going
Spiral out
Keep going
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i choose to be
i choose to be
watch the weather change
watch the weather change
watch the weather change
watch the weather
change
mention this to me
mention something
mention anything
mention this to me
watch the weather change
watch the weather change
watch the weather change
watch the weather change
watch the weather
change
watch the weather
change
mention this to me
mention something
mention anything
mention this to me
watch the weather
watch the weather
change
watch the weather change
watch the weather
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I have come curiously close to the end, down
Beneath my self-indulgent pitiful hole.
Defeated,
I concede and move closer. I may find comfort here.
I may find peace within the emptiness. How pitiful.
And it's calling me.
It's calling me.
It's calling me.
It's calling me.
And in my darkest moment, fetal and weeping.
The moon tells me a secret. My confidant.
As full and bright as I am, this light is not my own and
A million light reflections pass over me
It's source is bright and endless.
She resuscitates the hopeless
Without her we are lifeless satellites drifting
And as I pull my head out I am without one doubt
Don't want to be down here soothing my narcissism
I must crucify the ego before it's far too late
I pray the light lifts me out before I pine away.
before I pine away.
before I pine away.
before I pine away.
So crucify the ego before it's far too late
To leave behind this place so negative and blind and cynical
And you will come to find that we are all one mind
Capable of all that's imagined and all conceivable
Just let the light touch you and let the words spill thorough
Just let them pass right through, bringing out our hope and reason.
before we pine away.
before we pine away.
before we pine away.
before we pine away.
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"I, I don't have a whole lot of time. Um, OK, I'm a former
employee of Area 51. I, I was let go on a medical discharge
about a week ago and, and... [chokes] I've kind of been
running across the country. Damn, I don't know where to start,
they're, they're gonna, um, they'll triangulate on this position
really soon. OK, um, um, OK, what we're thinking of as, as
aliens, they're extradimensional beings, that, an earlier
precursor of the, um, space program they made contact with.
They are not what they claim to be. Uh, they've infiltrated a,
a lot of aspects of, of, of the military establishment,
particularly the Area 51. The disasters that are coming, they,
the military, I'm sorry, the government knows about them. And
there's a lot of safe areas in this world that they could begin
moving the population to now. They are not! They want those
major population centers wiped out so that the few that are
left will be more easily controllable."
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