The Panics Album

I’ve seen his face before
and I wonder what it means
three lonely fi gures standing at my door
and one he spoke to me
with a letter from my home
and a fever in his eyes
a chill went through my bones
and I bid my host goodbye
he gave me no reply
and I never looked behind
You’ve gotta get us home right now
There’s no comfort in the cradle where
we sleep
It’s a land of dark and wide
It won’t let us survive for free
I made my way on trains,
through the brick and the lanes
where the burnt wrecks lay dead on
the plains
and it leaves your heart the same
but it must be in disguise
if in this distance is my prize
out here sometimes it can play a cruel trick
on the mind
it’s playing one on mine
You’ve gotta get us home right now
There’s no comfort in the cradle where
we sleep
It’s a land of dark and wide
It won’t let us survive for free
You’ve gotta get us home
you’ve gotta lay it in stone

I’m close enough to know you’re near
but not enough to make it real
have I become like all the others here
a ruin in the deepest of all fears
before I had a chance to look
you went and turned your back for good
don’t act as if it’s understood
when it only takes one look
at the crater where we once stood
I don’t know what we will become
I just know that I’m not the one
yeah I know that I’m not the one that you’re
looking for
I hope that I can go without
someone else will have to guide you now
that can only break a spirit down
guided by a goal you never found
somewhere in the back looms a kitchen that’s
become her own tomb
on the wall I watch the shadow of her fi gure
fl oating ‘round the room
‘til she hits the lights and is gone from view
I don’t know what we will become
I just know that I’m not the one
yeah I know that I’m not the one that you’re
looking for
yeah I know that I’m not the one that you’re
looking for

I have closed your door
I’ve marked out the creaks in the fl oor
I have so much I could say
but I wanna slip away
so I’ll wait til youre asleep
you have kept me inside
like a still life caught
in a buzzing beehive
go on now close your eyes
blink and you’ll miss me
I’ve made up my mind
I just wanted to be somewhere else
for a while
I was looking for a little bit more
but now I’ve been away so long
I don’t remember what I’m looking for
there were times I was sure
I‘d travelled too far to look behind anymore
and if our chances are bleak
I’m only so brave I’ll make my moves while
you sleep
I just wanted to be somewhere else
for a while
I was looking for a little bit more
but now I’ve been away so long
I don’t remember what I’m looking for
because I made my plans for the rest
of my days
I made my plans for every day
and I made my plans for yesterday
thinking of you

I have no other way
There is a price to pay
For what the man will say
That I was a million miles away
In a promise full of steam
It could take no vacant dream
To persuade me to believe

I think just don't fight it, don't fight it, don't fight it
If you don't know what it is x2

I left my heart in places
Forgot everyone of their faces
And tried to navigate a broken path
Of which I may have helped create
In any incident, this is never no accident
To stand alone and
Let the silence make itself at home

Ah, give it up,
Those dirty tricks
No quick fix, can undo it
Ah, give it up
I won't resist
My answers always this

I say don't fight it, don't fight it,
don't fight it
If you don't know what its x2
Just don't fight it, don't fight it,
don't fight it
If you don't know what its x2

Where has my light gone?
Where has my fight gone?
What keeps us burning when the fire is long gone
When I can’t relate
To that voice without a face
Should I be afraid or
Is it just a voice I did create?

Ah, give it up,
Those dirty tricks
No quick fix, can undo it
Ah, give it up
I won't resist
My answers always this

I say don't fight it, don't fight it,
don't fight it
If you don't know what its x2
Just don't fight it, don't fight it,
don't fight it
If you don't know what its x2

well I know we're moving on
and it's clear we're moving on alone
I hope you find what you're looking for
and I know, that one thing's for sure
the feeling is gone
as long as I'm hoping it stays
I'm hoping it stays

well every time the feeling is mine
I let it go to waste
when I feel it go wrong
I leave it too long
so long it hurts to say
the feeling is gone
as long as I'm hoping it stays
I'm hoping it stays
I'm hoping it stays

and though it left me too
I wanna give that feeling back to you

the feeling is gone
(I'm hoping it stays)
(I'm hoping it stays)
the feeling is gone
(I'm hoping it stays)
(I'm hoping it stays)
the feeling is gone
(I'm hoping it stays)
(I'm hoping it stays)
the feeling is gone away

and though it left you too
I wanna give that feeling back to you

Cruel Guards
I see you in the papers through a foggy lens,
waving with a fist, my team, she always wins
He looks into your eyes like an old friend
tells you there’s a difference,
there’s us, us, us and them

It’s a cheat to make me feel happy when it’s on loan,
when you aint ever home, no you aint ever home

There is a bright, bright heat
They are the cruel, cruel gaurds
A most unfortunate charm
It’s always calm, it’s always calm
Right before you do me harm

I lost it once in a market queue,
dropped my bags, felt gagged and left
seeing black and blue

Found us drowned in the cobblestone
Forget your supplies
for the waters will rise on their own

It’s a cheat to make me feel happy when it’s on loan,
when you aint ever home, no you aint ever home

There is a bright, bright heat
They are the cruel, cruel gaurds
A most unfortunate charm
It’s always calm, it’s always calm
Right before you do me harm

It’s always calm, it’s always calm
Right before you do me harm

you don’t tell me we don’t talk no more
feels like a lifetime on an endless chore,
I had it coming, I could tell by the guilt that she wore,
if there were noises in the night coming from my door,
he wont be knocking til that sounds no more.
we had a chance and a plan to restore.

you scraped his body down to it's core
you had me hearing voices that were loud as a war
you were the face that would come tumbling down with it all
we took a corner round an unknown ridge
a conversation by the unused bridge
he had no face at all
I had to dig a hole or swim

and now I just won't fight
I ain't gonna battle no more
I have tried to weather that storm
now it's calm and it's clear and it's never gone

did you ever have a moment of doubt?
I'm living here alone and this is still it's a crowd
I'll never work you out
but how can I forgive, now I have to live without

I was looking back at every face in the street
screaming at the shadow with a howl of defeat
I admit I have some troubles keeping my feelings discrete
now this memory that I keep well it's not one I've show
creeps like a fever and it bleeds on it's own
and what has died in it's sleep is better if it's left alone

and now I just won't fight
I ain't gonna battle no more
and now I just won't fight
I ain't gonna battle no more
I have tried to weather that storm
now it's calm and it's clear and it's never gone

Theres a place they sit
where the wind don’t hit
with a shadow hanging over it
and sing with a sigh
my dirt, my dirt is dry
They put us on the steep
side of the hill
into our weatherboard shack on stilts
all of the while
the deeper the spiral
Inside ,all eyes
fi x upon a great divide
Outside ,all eyes
fi x upon an empty sky
theres something in the garden
that makes her unhappy
theres something in the garden
that makes her unhappy
I dreamt that they found us
the colour of coal
as smoke crept through the fl y wire holes
and my dirt it was drier
than the ash from the fi re
I count the days
in sand and sticks
and act brave on the face of it
theres not a cloud in the sky
my dirt , my dirt is dry
Inside ,all eyes
fi x upon a great divide
Outside ,all eyes
fi x upon an empty sky
theres something in the garden
that makes her unhappy
theres something in the garden
that makes her unhappy
come on let it wash us down,
down deep

I hit the dirt to begin
our story had hardly begun
before I even got my turn
I had been outdone
There was a moment there
I gave in and I lost my share
buried it inside
threw it back without a care
Now what have I come home to
and what good could I ever do
I am not the fi rst or the fi nal one to break
the rules
Though I gave it all
I don’t know what for
I have nothing at all to confess
Some boys they throw their hands
some make unfair demands
some see the science
and they deny to the end
Now why have I come home
and what have I come home to
why have I come home
just to break the rule
Though I gave it all
I don’t know what for
I have nothing at all to confess

They put a cup in my hands
a hand ‘cross my eyes
said I looked older
and not a bit wise
You see the words they were learned
and certainly mine
I spent six months looking for the rest of the
rhyme
I wanna get more , not just get by
C’mon c’mon , I’m waiting on you
c’mon , c’mon , give me the news
I’m counting on you
There’s clouds in my bottle
smoke in my eyes
and over my shoulder
a dishwater sky
further is the heat , bending the light
the cabin door swings on one stubborn wire
I wanna get more , not just get by
C’mon c’mon , I’m waiting on you
C’mon , c’mon , give me the news
I’m counting on you