When you say why you are going away
You defy me to be there
All your big deals and all of your days
You said you wouldn't but you still care
Everything you need is a delicate disaster
A brief catastrophe just to see if
I could find a way to stay and make this place
Somewhere that I could try and hold on
And give up on this chase that you say
I can't let it go
I'm at the end of my rope
I needed someone to show me everything
And I thought you could wait
Through my missteps and mistakes
I needed someone to say
That you'd be here anyway
When did you start to finally see
My melancholy habit
An affection for tragedy
Should've loved it when you had it
Everyday I'm gone
Breaking pieces off my memory
But you remember wrong
With the hope that
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I can't let it go
I'm at the end of my rope
I needed someone to show me everything
And I thought you could wait
Through my missteps and mistakes
I needed someone to say
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