Julia Fordham Album

Don't ask me why I'm running out of laughter
There's tears in these eyes, not happy ever after
And I thought it was plain to see
And I thought the whole world could be
And I thought we'd be happy ever after.

You could say that I'm living in a pipe dream
It's just looking back, things are never what they seem
And I hope I can safely say
And I hope most things go my way
And I hope they'll be happy ever after.

Down in Southern Africa no happy ever after
Not now, but soon forever
While they're sitting comfortably
In that white winter city
How can we be happy ever after?

Um by yay
Est ce le South Africa

So don't ask me why I'm running out of laughter
There's tears in these eyes, not happy ever after.
And I thought it was plain to see
And I thought that maybe you and me
And I thought we'd be happy ever after.

Um by yay
Um by yay
Um by yay

(guest vocal: John O'Kane)

If I could have a pound for every moment I've spent worrying
On all the little things in life that frankly there's no hurrying
Then I would be a rich girl I wanna be a rich girl soon
But going at this rate I think that it might take
Till there's life on the moon...

Where does the time go? Does anyone know?
Where does the time go? Does anyone know?
Where does the time go? Does anyone know?

If I could have a sneak preview to all the earthly reasons
It takes to make the theme of time then I'd be a girl for all seasons
And I wouldn't have to worry I wouldn't have to worry oh no no no
It just seems kind of funny that there's some things I'll just never
Know

Like where does the time go? Does anyone know?
Where does the time go? Does anyone know?
Where does the time go? Does anyone know?

We were only just saying just the other day
How it's really amazing how the days just seem to slip away
And it's right before my very own eyes
Oh there's some things that we'll never, we'll never know, like

Where does the time go?
Where does the time go? Does anyone know?
Tell me where does the time go?
Tell me where does it go?
There's some things we'll never know

If I could have a pound for every moment I've spent worrying
On all the little things in life that frankly there's no hurrying
Then I would be a rich girl and I wanna be a rich girl soon
But going at this rate I think that it might take
Till there's life on the moon...

Oh where does the time go? Does anyone know?
Oh where does the time go? Does anyone know?
Oh tell me where does the time go?

Where does the time go?

I've been counting all my days, I've been counting all my nights
Tell me where does it go?
Where, where, where, where, where does it go?
The time go, the time go, the time go
Where, where, where, where does it go?

Does anyone know?

I've been counting all my days, I've been counting all my nights

What chance did I stand? How could I resist?
Your American arms and your French kiss
From New York to London, London to New York
With this broken heart so British

Ooh ooh yeah yeah
As broken as the Manhattan skyline

Ooh ooh yeah yeah
As broken as the fragments of my mind
My mind my mind

New York to London...yeah

Now our love is lying like some troubled land
Now you are my Ireland, and I'm your 'Nam
From New York to London, London to New York
With this broken heart so British

Ooh ooh yeah yeah
As broken as the Manhattan skyline

Ooh ooh yeah yeah
As broken as the fragments of my mind
My mind my mind

I should cry more tears for Israel
Instead of dwelling in my own hell
And my love and my world's plight
They're still giving me sleepless nights

What chance did I stand? How could I resist?
Now this broken this broken this broken heart...
So British

Ooh ooh yeah yeah
As broken as the Manhattan skyline

Ooh ooh yeah yeah
As broken as the fragments of my mind

When there's comfort in pleasure and pleasure in pain
And I'm wondering if I'll see you again
No tangled emotions dragging us down
And the texture of your voice the sweetest sound

I'm gonna wrap you up and take you home with me
Yo' Yo' Yeah Yeah
Treasured in my heart under lock and key.

When there's nothing to hold you, or holding you back
No chains of attachment, only basic facts
No strangled devotions, hemming us in
And the taste of your smile was the sweetest thing

I'm gonna wrap you up and take you home with me
Yo' Yo' Yeah Yeah
Treasured in my heart under lock and key

Under lock and key, my precious moments
My precious memories, and you know, and you know
I ain't never, never, I ain't never gonna let them go

Yo' Yo' Yeah Yeah

When there's comfort in pleasure and pleasure in pain
And I'm wondering, wondering if I'll see you again
No tangled emotions, dragging us down
And the texture of your voice the sweetest sound

I'm gonna lock you up and take you home with me
Yo' Yo' Yeah Yeah
Treasured in my heart under lock and key.

I am very very much in like with you
I hope that it's okay 'cause it's all I can do
'Cause you treat my skin like porcelain,
Rare and special porcelain
Even though you know I know you know
That this is not the real thing...

Oh, isn't it enough what I'm giving to you, baby?
Oh, isn't it enough that your kisses drive me crazy?
Oh, isn't it enough, isn't it enough?

I read a book like you, it says for what it's worth
People only really get what they deserve
And I hear a voice cry out within
Relax, enjoy the porcelain
Treatment feels like liquid gold
A treasured hand for me to hold

Oh, isn't it enough what I'm giving to you, baby?
Oh, isn't it enough that your kisses drive me crazy?
Oh, isn't it enough, isn't it enough?

Porcelain, porcelain
You treat my skin like porcelain...

In the big, big scheme of things
Beyond the rare and special porcelain
Beyond the joy, joy and the dis-at-ease
Well there's a place for me...

Porcelain, porcelain....

Sometimes I think I should say I love you too
If words are free, why can't I spare the best for you?
'Cause you treat my skin like porcelain
Rare and special porcelain
Even though you know I know you know
I'm cracked from all of this living

Oh, isn't it enough what I'm giving to you, baby?
Oh, isn't it enough that your kisses drive me crazy?
Oh, isn't it enough that I'm checking for you, baby?
Oh, isn't it enough that your kisses drive me crazy?
Oh, isn't it enough, isn't it enough?

Isn't it enough?

Don't tell me to stop crying please just hold me while I do
Soothe me with your silence and just cradle me to you
Don't push me for my reasons or expect me to explain
How can I in five minutes shift a lifetime's hidden pain?

Don't tell your girlfriend about me 'cos your girlfriend
won't like girls like me
Don't tell your girlfriend about me
If you just hold me, hold me, hold me....

I went to see a psychic and I paid for good advice
He said "Forget a romance 'til you've sorted out your life.
Be your own mother and your father and your sister and brother,
And even try to crack the art of being your own lover...

Don't tell your girlfriend about me 'cos your girlfriend
won't like girls like me
Don't tell your girlfriend about me
If you just hold me, hold me, hold me....

In my darkest hour you'd be mine, these wildest dreams
are no crime, or are they? Girlfriend
Coming from a place of need, not one of abundance,
You see he told me. Girlfriend

Don't tell me to stop crying, please just hold me while I do
Soothe me with your silence and just cradle me to you
Don't push me for my reasons or expect me to explain
How come I say I'm happy to be on my own again...?

Don't tell your girlfriend about me 'cos your girlfriend
won't like girls like me
Don't tell your girlfriend about me 'cos your girlfriend
won't like girls like me
You don't have to tell your girlfriend about me

(written by Julia Fordham/John Watkin)

I've been living on wishes, living on wishes all my life
And I wish I could make one
To make everything in your world right

I'm falling forward while you wait behind
Lost for your reasons and missing your time
And I, I, I'm, I, I, I'm
Wishing for you (falling forward)
And I, I, I'm, I, I, I'm
Wishing for you

And I'm only an hour, not even an hour away
But you're keeping your distance
We're more than a million miles apart these days

I'm falling forward while you wait behind
Lost for your reasons and missing your time
And I, I, I'm, I, I, I'm
Wishing for you (falling forward)
And I, I, I'm, I, I, I'm
Wishing for you (falling forward)
And I, I, I'm, I, I, I'm
Wishing for you (falling forward)

And suddenly I'm the villain of the piece
You're lying awake, wondering how I sleep

I'm falling forward while you wait behind
Lost for your reasons and missing your time
And I, I, I'm, I, I, I'm
Wishing for you (falling forward)
And I, I, I'm, I, I, I'm
Wishing for you (falling forward)
And I, I, I'm, I, I, I'm
Wishing for you (falling forward)

I steal a glance at you, and save it up for later
You see what I've come to? I really should know better

But I can't help myself, help myself (can't help it)
I'm lost in you
I can't help myself, help myself (can't help it)
I'm lost in you

I lie awake at night to savour what it is I've stolen
I'm hoping that you might know where this is going

But I can't help myself, help myself (can't help it)
I'm lost in you
I can't help myself, help myself (can't help it)
I'm lost in you

And the funny part is I feel no guilt and no shame
I guess where there's no action there's no blame
And if I had an ounce of sense left I'd keep it that way too
And I think of you, I think of me
And remember what will be will be
And I'm looking forward to the day
Where I don't have to feel this way

I can't help myself, help myself (can't help it)
I'm lost in you
I can't help myself, help myself (can't help it)
I'm lost in you
I can't help myself, I'm lost in you darling, I am lost
I'm so lost, I can't help myself

I can't help it
I can't help it
I can't help it

Don't say your world lights up when I smile
'Cos you know it's too late for talk like that
And as this love fades, we both know that I have been betrayed
I'm not looking for the answer, baby
I'm just looking for a little love
We're all looking for something, baby
And for a minute, a minute, a minute

I thought it was you
I thought it was you
I thought that it was you
I thought it was you

Don't say that you'll be there when I need you
'Cos where are you when I need you now
I need you
The truth hurts
Ooh I'm hurting now I'm hurting ooh
I'm not looking for the answer baby
I'm just looking for a little love
We're all looking for someone baby
And for a minute, a minute, a minute

(Repeat chorus)

I wouldn't change a thing except the ending
'Til the part where you broke my heart
Everybody's talking about forgiveness
I can't forgive you for leaving me

I'm not looking for the answer baby
I'm just looking for a little love
We're all looking for something baby
And for a minute, a minute, a minute

It's been a whole year since your call
The one that started
I don't love you anymore
I thought I'd surely not survive
But here I am, I'm still alive, 365 days later

Going strong, holding on
trying to find a place where I belong
I've been east, I've been west
but I'm still not over you yet
I'm still not over you yet, no no

The weeks and months blend into one
A bleary haze, fall, winter
now spring has begun
Bringing fresh hope to my door
I'll be the girl I was before you took back
the precious gift you gave to me

Going strong, holding on
trying to find a place where I belong
I've been east, I've been west
but I'm still not over you yet
I'm still not over you yet, no no

And after all is said and done
and written up (written in the stars above)
The radio's singing songs of love
but not for us
Not for us

Going strong, holding on
trying to find a place where I belong
I've been east, I've been west
but I'm still not over you yet
I'm still not over you yet, no no
East west, east west, 365

I confess, there's a chance
I cannot fake it any longer
I admit, this could be it
there's a danger I'm going under
I know that yesterday
you saw me stronger than the sun
Then one cold word from you
and swiftly I've come undone

And your love's killing me slowly
Killing me one day at a time
Killing me slowly
It's the sweetest suicide
it's the sweetest suicide

Killing me slowly

Your firm hand on the door
my brave little foot keeping it open
My whole self on the line
there's a danger I might get broken
Slip your pill under my tongue
and willingly I succumb
Cup my heart in your palm
and squeeze it 'til the red stuff runs

And your love's killing me slowly
Killing me one day at a time
Killing me slowly
It's the sweetest suicide
it's the sweetest suicide

Killing me slowly

For a moment there
you know I almost fooled myself
Into thinking I was in control of how I felt
Striving towards salvation
clutching my last drop of dignity
Go on take the pillow
smother me, smother me

And your love's killing me slowly
Killing me one day at a time
Killing me slowly
It's the sweetest suicide

Kid, you're doing ok
Kid, you're on your way
Kid, the band is starting up your song
Kid, you can't go wrong

And this too shall pass
I promise these tears won't last
This too shall fade
Something lost, something saved
Something lost, kid, something saved

Kid, don't grow up before your time
Kid, you're doing fine
Soon love will call to do its thing
Kid, let it in

[chorus]

Do you remember when I took your smaller hand
And told you I would always try to understand
Oh kid

[chorus]

Oh kid

You had me right there in the palm of you hand
With your fingers locked in mine
And with a little sweet talking
I'd've clung on for all time

It was nothing that you said
It was everything you didn't say
And all the tears I've shed
Won't wash the pain away

We had our moment it was golder than gold
It was solid through and through
And in that moment if you'd given the word
I'd've followed you followed you

[chorus]

Misunderstanding number one
I thought that you were bigger than me
Misunderstanding number two
I thought that I could find myself in you

(written by Tom Snow and Dean Pitchford)

Who'd have thought this is how the pieces fit
You and I shouldn't even try making sense of it
I forgot how we ever came this far
I believe we had reasons but I don't know what they are
Don't blame it on my heart, oh

Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways

Heaven knows love is just a chance we take
We make plans but then love demands a leap of faith
So hold me close and never never let me go
'Cos even though we think we know which way the river flows
That's not the way love goes, no

(Repeat chorus)

Like the ticking of a clock two hearts beat as one
But I'll never understand the way it's done, oh

(Repeat chorus)