Julia Fordham Album

I confess, there's a chance
I cannot fake it any longer
I admit, this could be it
there's a danger I'm going under
I know that yesterday
you saw me stronger than the sun
Then one cold word from you
and swiftly I've come undone

And your love's killing me slowly
Killing me one day at a time
Killing me slowly
It's the sweetest suicide
it's the sweetest suicide

Killing me slowly

Your firm hand on the door
my brave little foot keeping it open
My whole self on the line
there's a danger I might get broken
Slip your pill under my tongue
and willingly I succumb
Cup my heart in your palm
and squeeze it 'til the red stuff runs

And your love's killing me slowly
Killing me one day at a time
Killing me slowly
It's the sweetest suicide
it's the sweetest suicide

Killing me slowly

For a moment there
you know I almost fooled myself
Into thinking I was in control of how I felt
Striving towards salvation
clutching my last drop of dignity
Go on take the pillow
smother me, smother me

And your love's killing me slowly
Killing me one day at a time
Killing me slowly
It's the sweetest suicide

It's been a whole year since your call
The one that started
I don't love you anymore
I thought I'd surely not survive
But here I am, I'm still alive, 365 days later

Going strong, holding on
trying to find a place where I belong
I've been east, I've been west
but I'm still not over you yet
I'm still not over you yet, no no

The weeks and months blend into one
A bleary haze, fall, winter
now spring has begun
Bringing fresh hope to my door
I'll be the girl I was before you took back
the precious gift you gave to me

Going strong, holding on
trying to find a place where I belong
I've been east, I've been west
but I'm still not over you yet
I'm still not over you yet, no no

And after all is said and done
and written up (written in the stars above)
The radio's singing songs of love
but not for us
Not for us

Going strong, holding on
trying to find a place where I belong
I've been east, I've been west
but I'm still not over you yet
I'm still not over you yet, no no
East west, east west, 365

I have been imagining myself
Under you over you outside you
I have been happy in my thinking

Drive me to the mountains
Take me to the sea
You be strong and beautiful
And I'll try not to be me
With my complications
With my don'ts and dos
You be kind and wonderful
And I'll be good to you

If you feel brave and you ask me I'll say
Stay, stay, stay, stay

Safe beneath these clean white sheets I dream
I'm under you over you outside you
I have been happy in my dreaming

Kiss me in the morning
Hold me though the night
Whisper that it's okay
And I'll believe you're right
Steer me from the shadows
Lead me to the light
Push your hand in my hand
And I won't put up a fight

If you feel brave and you ask me I'll say
Stay, stay, stay, stay

Under you over you outside you
Stay, carry me away

I want to call you baby
And you to take care of me
I want to call you baby, baby

God help me
I don't know what's right anymore
I'm robbed of reason in my blind
hurry to your door
Blessed is the blend that's racing
through my veins
And troubled is the mind that brings me
back to earth again

I want to call you baby
And you to take care of me
I want to call you baby, baby

Peel away the layers of
of coming consequence
I feel will follow should we fall
from innocence
Make it safe to lay in your loving arms
And let's pretend there's no one
here to hurt or harm

I want to call you baby
And you to take care of me
I want to call you baby, baby

Gather me up like a child in need
Watch over me while you rock me to sleep
When I'm alone all night in the dark
I blame you for my swollen heart

I want to call you baby
And you to take care of me
I want to call you baby
I want to call you baby
And you to take care of me

Know that I'm living on a day-to-day basis
I'm digging in the dirt for traces of our love
Of our love

And with the sun as my only witness
And the sun knows for sure that this is

My last goodbye
My last goodbye

Hear me now 'cause I'm speaking for the
lost and the lonely
I'm allowed to 'cause of how you hurt me
I belong, I belong

And I swear on the stars up above
And I swear I'd do it all again for love

This is my last goodbye
My last goodbye

And I've had my fair share of the
good, bad and beautiful
And I've had my fair share of life

This is my last goodbye
My last goodbye
I can't take another goodbye baby

The news just filtered through
There's a new girl hanging out with you
I'd kill the messenger
But she's my friend and I love her
And I know she tells me this for my own good
'Cause she knows I've not moved on
like a wise girl should

Now she's lying in my place
With the right to kiss my favourite face
Now she's curled up in my chair
Your fingers in her hair
It's more than I can bear

I do the best I can
To go along with God's good plan
He thinks it's obvious
There's no hope for the two of us
So I know he's doing this for my own good
'Cause she knows I've not moved on
like a wise girl should

Now she's lying in my place
With the right to kiss my favourite face
Now she's curled up in my chair
Your fingers in her hair
It's more than I can bear

Some may say life is for living
But this takes some forgiving
And I will try to

Now she's lying in my place
With the right to kiss my favourite face
Now she's curled up in my chair
Your fingers in her hair
It's more than I can bear

I used to pride myself on always being
one step ahead of the game
I thought I had it in line
thought I knew what was mine
and then you came
And unraveled every fibre from
beneath my solid ground

I'm feeling like I can't look down
I'm scared of what I'll find
I can tell you anything
but what's really on my mind
I can tell you anything
but what's really on my mind

I'm so tempted to lay the whole
complete truth at your finger tips
If I gave you it straight would
my secret be safe behind your lips?
Or would my guarded notion
crumble in your care?

I'm feeling like I can't look down
I'm scared of what I'll find
I can tell you anything
but what's really on my mind
I can tell you anything
but what's really on my mind

And sometimes I stall to catch myself
From sharing all these silent things I've felt

I'm feeling like I can't look down
I'm scared of what I'll find
I can tell you anything
but what's really on my mind
I can tell you anything

I print it up, I join the dots
I fill in any spaces I should stumble on
Here in this, trapped in this tale
of love gone wrong

I hold my, I hope to die
Or wake to find that all of this
has passed me by
Here in this, trapped in this unfolding tale

I'm doing my best at
Wishing you, wishing you, wishing you
Wishing you, wishing you, wishing you well
I'm doing my best at
Wishing you, wishing you, wishing you
Wishing you, wishing you well

I fumble on, the days are long
I tell myself I must, I must, I must be strong
Here in this, trapped in this unfolding tale

I'm doing my best at
Wishing you, wishing you, wishing you
Wishing you, wishing you, wishing you well
I'm doing my best at
Wishing you, wishing you, wishing you
Wishing you, wishing you well

The story unfolds from your sorry lips
Hitting hard against my skin
Seeping down beneath the surface
And setting up home therein

I'm doing my best at
Wishing you, wishing you, wishing you
Wishing you, wishing you, wishing you well
I'm doing my best at
Wishing you, wishing you, wishing you
Wishing you, wishing you well

You put the smile back
on my face, thank you
You bring me hope
that there's a chance
That I might love again
You awakened my weary faith
thank you baby
Oh, my little bit of magic

You are my little bit of magic
You are my little bit of light
You are my little bit of magic
and I wish you were here tonight

You're filling up my empty
heart, thank you
You brought me hope to hang on to
just when I thought that I was done
Life was cold and life was hard
thank you baby
Oh, my little bit of magic

You are my little bit of magic
You are my little bit of light
You are my little bit of magic
and I wish you were here tonight

I held my hand out and you took it
Take me where you will
I'm not sure if you knew it
The way you made me feel
I've got to thank you for it
My little bit of magic
Yeah yeah little bit of magic

You are my little bit of magic
You are my little bit of light
You are my little bit of magic
and I wish you were here
I wish you were here

Take me back, I'll make you happy
Take me back, I'll treat you like
a precious thing
Oh come on you know a good deal
when you hear one
And they don't come much better than this

Take me back, I'll make you whole
Take me back, I'll complete your soul
So I fucked up well then sue me
Anything but this freeze me out business

And there's a song I've been
writing in my head
Can't seem to get past the opening line
No need to put it down 'cause I won't forget
It's ``the fat lady ain't singing yet''

Take me back, I'll make you king
Take me back, I'll do anything
For your comfort and your pleasure
Your personal delight

And there's a song I've been
writing in my head
Can't seem to get past the opening line
No need to put it down 'cause I won't forget
It's ``the fat lady ain't singing yet''

Close your eyes and count to a million
In dollars if that helps
When you open them I'll be waiting
For you and nothing else
``The fat lady ain't singing yet''

The fat lady ain't singing yet
She's putting on her party dress
Standing there in the wings
Don't let that fat lady sing
Sing
Gonna make you king
Treat you like a precious thing
Don't let that fat lady sing
Fat lady sing

Goodbye I love you
Don't forget to take
Your list of reasons
And the heart I did not break
Let alone split open
Let alone live in
Perhaps a deep blue bruise will mark
The place where I have been

And the sun will still rise
Tomorrow so will I
And I'll wave as I say
Goodbye I love you baby
goodbye I love you baby

Good luck I missed you
Before you'd even gone
The voice of wisdom
Saw to it I was forewarned
That the hands of fate that guided
You here to my side
Would pull you back and onwards
No matter how I tried

And the sun will still rise
Tomorrow so will I
And I'll wave as I say
Goodbye I love you baby
goodbye I love you baby

As I lay these future dreams to rest
I bury hem with seeds of
hope for happiness

Goodbye I love you
Don't forget to take
Your list of reasons