Jen Foster Album

Words & music by Jen Foster

Won't you please tell me just where you're going
I'm on edge with this uncertainty
I know I have made it hard to get to know me
It's terrifying - you may not like what you see
And I know that you would love to break me down
But some things are just too hard to talk about
All this time I've been lyin', been lyin' to you
So afraid that you'd leave me if you knew the truth
All this time I've been tryin' to reach out to you
All this time I've been lyin', where you goin', where you goin'?
Please don't leave, I never meant to hurt you
I'm just locked up in this solitary pain
I learned young that keeping secrets is a virtue
What happened to me - I can't bring myself to say
And I know that if I say it, it is true
And I'm scared that you would leave me if you knew
All this time I've been lyin', been lyin' to you
So afraid that you'd leave me if you knew the truth
All this time I've been tryin' to reach out to you
All this time I've been lyin', where you goin', where you goin'?
As you leave I say a quiet prayer for mercy
One more time, just turn around and look at me
And as I pray, you say you never would desert me
"In fact, come with me - I was just going out for groceries."
And the stars fade out in the sky tonight
And the dawn breaks in and spreads the light

Words by Jen Foster & Kathy Scott
Music by Jen Foster

The black and white picture taken by a stranger
Out in the streets of New Orleans
The blanket I stole from that hotel in London
You asked if I thought I was the Queen
And my big blue sweater - you made it look better
Is folded in the corner of your suitcase
You're taking everything, you've got my heart on a string
Just tell me where we are going
All I am is where you are
And I never knew you could go so far
All I have is in your heart
You took me with you, you took me with you
The broken wine bottle that fell off our mantle
We couldn't stand to throw that sweet memory away
The book by Fitzgerald that I bought for your birthday
Is packed in a box with my love letters you saved
And you're taking Bob Dylan, oh, the times must be changing
Maybe you'll listen as you're driving away
You're taking everything, you've got my heart on a string
C'mon tell me where we are going
All I am is where you are
And I never knew you could go so far
All I have is in your heart
You took me with you, you took me with you
Those shells from the ocean, that one, yellow rose and
The incense and candles and your old tambourine
Your sweatshirt from college, that painting that you wanted
And I'll take the promise that you could not keep….
All I am is where you are
And I never knew you could go so far
All I have is in your heart
You took me with you, you took me with you
You're taking Bob Dylan….

Words by Jen Foster & Kathy Scott
Music by Jen Foster

Second grade, Billy Simms
Playing out by the jungle gym
All the boys laughed at him
For some sort of speech impediment
And they knocked him down
And I pushed them off
And they kicked our asses
'Cause we were the underdogs
Seventh grade, Cindy Sloan
Eating in the lunchroom all alone
They called her strange, but I could see
She was just different like me
So I asked her over
And she blew me off
It made perfect sense to me
'Cause we were the underdogs
When everyone's above you, there's nowhere you can go
When nobody calls you, 'cause it's all in who you know
When the self-righteous say they're for you, telling you to win this fight
Nobody understands you, no they don't know what it's like
Freshman year, Judson Tate
He didn't have a Homecoming date
He asked me out, we never kissed
We told each other our big secret
He said he fell for James
And James broke his heart
And I understood him
'Cause we were the underdogs
When everyone's above you, there's nowhere you can go
When nobody calls you, 'cause it's all in who you know
When the self-righteous say they're for you, telling you to win this fight
Nobody understands you, no they don't know what it's like
Senior year, Billy Simms

Words by Jen Foster & Kathy Scott
Music by Jen Foster

Black is only black until you light a candle
Stone is only stone until you take a hammer
And this song was just a song until the day you came along
And wrote this wrong
It wouldn't be David without Michelangelo
No Starry, Starry Night without the light of Van Gogh
And I'll never be the same since you put me in your frame
And signed your name
War is only war until you lose somebody
Love is only love until I touched your body
Imagine a world without John Lennon, the rain and the wind without Bob Dylan
Blue without Joni, blue without Miles
But every song is just a song until somebody comes along
And makes it sing
It wouldn't be David without Michelangelo
No Starry, Starry Night without the light of Van Gogh
And I'll never be the same since you put me in your frame
And signed your name
Black is just black until you light a candle
Stone is just stone until you take a hammer
War is just war until you lose someone
Love is…

Words & music by Jen Foster

When the light of love surrounds you
When the dark of night confounds you
When the shadow life astounds you
Breathe in, and say amen, amen, once again
The day breaks in technicolor
A mother wakes her child from slumber
A little boy peeks out from under the sheets and grins
Say amen, amen, once again
At times this world can be so beautiful
It's hard to take it all in
But don't you be afraid, just let it rain
And say amen
A boy kisses a girl for the first time
A bird leaves her nest and takes flight
A broken man gets up and tries again
Say amen, amen, once again
At times this world can be so beautiful
It's hard to take it all in
But don't you be afraid, just let it rain
And say amen

Words & music by Jen Foster

Pieces, falling
Through the sky, I'm wanting
To feel you beneath me
But not like this, believe me
No, I can't wake up, no I can't crash down
To half that's lost and half that's found
I can't believe that you
Would leave me this way
I am broken up into a thousand pieces
You have stolen one, it's a piece I needed
I can't open up, you can't close me shut
I am broken
Pieces, floating
Up off the ground, exploding
I feel you above me
But not like this, don't rush me
‘Cause I cannot look, no, I cannot find
The half that's yours and the half that's mine
I can't believe that you
Could leave me this way
I am broken up into a thousand pieces
You have stolen one, it's a piece I needed
I can't open up, you can't close me shut
I am broken
And you stole my heart
Right from the wreckage
Now I can't ever be put back together
Pieces, resting
Upon the ground you're blessing
Can you feel me beneath me?
All over everywhere?
I am broken up into a thousand pieces
You have stolen one, it's a piece I needed
I can't open up, you can't close me shut
I can't open up, you can't close me shut
I can't open up, you can't close me shut

A certain way you dance around
And crack a smile and break me down
After the third act when you come home
You turn it off and turn me on
When you think no one's watching
When you're taken by the moment
When you forget what you're thinking and you say what you really feel
When you're in-between poses
And when your laughter takes over
That's when you're floating with the angels, that's when you're floating with
the angels
For such a softie, you try so hard
You get so angry that you're not a star
But if you could show them what you show me
In your pajamas acting like you're three
When you think no one's watching
When you're taken by the moment
When you forget what you're thinking and you say what you really feel
When you're in-between poses
And when your laughter takes over
That's when you're floating with the angels, that's when you're floating with
the angels
And when you laugh a little too loud
And spill your coffee all over
And when you're singing in the shower
I see your cup runneth over
And chocolate sundaes make you smile
And Monday morning, stay awhile you're beautiful
When you think no one's watching
When you're taken by the moment
When you forget what you're thinking and you say what you really feel
When you're in-between poses
And when your laughter takes over
That's when you're floating with the angels, that's when you're floating with
the angels

Words & music by Jen Foster & Glenn Rosenstein

C'mon, take my hand
A surprise is awaiting you
We'll sprawl out on the sand
And unwind by the light of the moon
Forget your father's face
Forget the debts you have to pay
Forget the things I'm saying
Let's get away, yeah
We could fly out of this place
And out into space where Saturn awaits us
We could fly straight through the sky, way over county lines
Where Saturn's a state of mind
C'mon, let's take a trip
We can lay on my big brass bed, yeah
We don't need no rocketship to get there
These rings around my heart, you see, are where we'll find the mystery
We could fly out of this place
And out into space where Saturn awaits us
We could fly straight through the sky, way over county lines
'Cause Saturn's a state of mind
Forget about the fear inside you
Look at all the stars to guide you
All the planets are aligned
When Saturn is your state of mind
C'mon, let's take a trip
We don't need no rocketship...
We could fly out of this place
And out into space where Saturn awaits us
We could fly straight through the sky, way over county lines

Words & music by Jen Foster

I'm lost when memories are all I have to breathe
I'm lost when endings are always just beginning
Where did you go? All that I know
Is I loved you way too much
Everybody goes, everybody leaves you
There's no one you can own and no one you could pay
Everyone's alone and there's nothing to believe in
And nothing you can do and nothing you can say
You're gone like oceans of love all blown out to sea
You're gone like everyone who's ever come to me
Now here I am, without you I can't
See myself go on
Everybody goes, everybody leaves you
There's no one you can own and no one you could pay
Everyone's alone and there's no one to believe in
And nothing you can do and nothing you can say
Give me a moment to prepare myself
Give me a moment to put on a better face
Give me a moment to collect myself
As you walk away
Everybody goes, everybody goes
Everybody goes away
Everybody goes, everybody leaves you
There's no one you can own and no one you could pay
Everyone's alone and there's no one to believe in

Words by Jen Foster
Music by Jen Foster & Danny Torroll

Light the stars in your eyes
Quiet doubts in your mind
Follow me to the place where our colors bled
The young, invincible ones
Rockets aimed at the sun
We never once questioned where we were going
They called us all wrong, and they trashed all our songs
They dressed us for church, and they threw us in blind
We gathered our hands, and we turned towards the wind
It was our time
We were gods, we were gods
We were gods, at least, we thought
I will never forget
Days we skipped out of class
The subtle crash of a kiss still forbidden
When time was our time to waste
And love was ours to forsake
And all our biggest mistakes gave us all our best stories
We threw out the map, and we tossed up our caps
We swore that we'd break every brick in that wall
But it took all our breath when we found that they'd set us up
To fall
We were gods, we were gods
We were gods, at least, we thought…..
Before we were lawyers
And homeless self-employers
Before we crash-landed
Into the sky...
We were gods, we were gods

Words by Jen Foster
Music by Jen Foster & Danny Torroll

Day begins, break of noon
A little light might be nice in this room
Tangled in sheets, on second thought
Some photographs are better in the dark
And I thought you might come home this summer
And maybe there will be sun in seattle
Awake again, the clock strikes three
Peek out the window, the moon is mocking me
These medications are fucking with my head
This roof is leaking and my ship's a feather bed
And I thought you might come home this summer
And maybe there will be sun in seattle
Please, please come home, home
Please, please come home, home...
And I thought you might come home this summer
And maybe there will be sun in seattle
And I thought you might come home this summer
And maybe there will be sun in seattle
Please, please come home, home