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so where do we begin
and what else can we say?
when the lines are all drawn
what should we do today?
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are you listening
am i here screaming?
drowning in a silent sea
or only dreaming?
drifting in and out
his mind never rests
lying in shadows
replaying a thousand regrets
can you hear me
am i getting through?
a million miles away
or here beside you?
drifting in and out
his heart never forgets
lying in shadows
replaying a thousand regrets
and the minutes just pass
as the hours change
and the shifting sands
slowly rearrange
drifting in and out
his mind never rests
lying in shadows
replaying a thousand regrets
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there's a cloud above us
and there's a shadow on us
and outside of us
hangs this shade of gray
rain falling
hours crawling
all around this shade of gray
there's a chill about us
and there's a sadness with us
and deep within us
lies this shade of gray
rain falling
hours crawling
all around this shade of gray
this shade of gray
"rain's falling, hours crawling"
this shade of gray
"rain's falling, hours crawling"
there's a space beside us
and there's miles between us
and all around us
grows this shade of gray
rain falling
hours crawling
all around this shade of gray
rain falling
hours crawling
all around this shade of gray
This shade of gray
"rain's falling, hours crawling"
this shade of gray
"rain's falling, hours crawling"
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listen
only us breathing
and the rain keeping time
dividing the silence
in a distant thunder
listen
only hearts beating
and the rain keeping time
measuring out the minutes
and taking us under
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murdered in munich
crucified in rome
was killing time
on the long road home
let nothing bleed into nothing
and did nothing
let nothing bleed into nothing
and did nothing at all
withered in winter
wished away the night
was out of mind
while out of sight
let nothing bleed into nothing
and did nothing
let nothing bleed into nothing
and did nothing at all
let nothing bleed into nothing
and did nothing
let nothing bleed into nothing
and did nothing at all
watched the days just pass
as the seasons changed
and the shifting sands
slowly rearranged
but i will not eulogize
i won't apologize
i will not defend
anymore, anymore
i will not dramatize
i won't soliloquize
i will not pretend
anymore, anymore
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i know that i don't know you
and you couldn't know me
but time and space collided
and here we are, here we are
i know that you don't understand
and i can't explain
but circumstance conspired
and here we are, here we are
"the time is four nineteen..."
"time flies..."
"???"
"the answer is no..."
and i know we can't turn back all the years
time reflected in a shade of gray
but i often wonder what could have been
and i still hold on to yesterday
and i know we're not children any more
innocence lost in a sea of gray
but i often wonder what else could be
and i still dream of running away
so where do we begin
and what else can we say?
when the lines are all drawn
what should we do today?
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stare from the darkness
hear the silence call?
devise divisions, delay decisions,
watch the hours crawl and...
let nothing bleed into nothing
and do nothing?
let nothing bleed into nothing
and do nothing at all?
recite soliloquies
to shadows on the wall?
revise revisions, reverse decisions
watch our heroes fall and...
let nothing bleed into nothing
and do nothing?
let nothing bleed into nothing
and do nothing at all?
"i want you to do me a favor..."
"i want you to get a gun...and just shoot me! shoot me!"
let nothing bleed into nothing
and do nothing?
let nothing bleed into nothing
and do nothing at all?
let nothing bleed into nothing
and do nothing?
let nothing bleed into nothing
and do nothing at all?
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A Pleasant Shade Of Gray VIII |
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stayed up late last night
lying here in bed
looking for words
to say the things i left unsaid
wind at my window
whispers to me instead
and i lie alone
writing letters in my head
where you are, i am
through nights that never end
where you are, i am
in words i'll never send
walked alone last night
cold streets of could be anywhere
looking for words
to share the thoughts i could not share
road at my heels
takes me away instead
and i walk alone
writing letters in my head
where you are, i am
through streets that never end
where you are, i am
in words i'll never send
where you are, i am
through nights that never end
where you are, i am
in words i'll never send
never, never send
stayed up late last night
lying here in bed
still looking for words
still writing letters in my head
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A Pleasant Shade Of Gray X |
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do you think that i, that i remember
do you think that i, that i recall
when you were falling
and i just watched it all?
do you think that i, that i remember
do you think that i, that i recall
when you were breaking
and i just let the pieces fall?
don't you think that i remember
don't you think that i recall
when you were alone, oh all alone
and i didn't hear, hear your call?
call... hear your call, hear your call, hear your call...
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this shade of gray
this certain sadness
this cold morning light
and this silent madness
it hangs in the air
it hangs like a memory
it hangs like a cloud
it hangs on desperately
between dark and light
between was and be
between young and old
between you and me
between you and me
i remember cities
and i remember rain
like the sound of your voice, falling
these memories and more remain
i remember winter
and i remember strain
like the sound of your voice, breaking
these memories and more remain
i remember the nights
and i remember pain
like the sound of your voice, alone
these memories and more remain
so where do we begin
and what else can we say?
when the lines are all drawn
what should we do today?
close our eyes awhile
as morning shadows play
and listen to the rain
wash the long night away
face to face we'll awake
to see another day
and with hope in our hearts
embrace this shade of gray
this pleasant shade of gray
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[Music: Matheos. Lyrics: Alder]
Under the spotlight
I feel our world becoming one
Around me I feel
Everything we are everything we see
I'll take a part of you
You take a part of me
Knowing at a glance
Where we all stand
Searching for another chance
To make us all one
Above the staring eyes
I sense that we are one
Knowing, showing
Everything we are everything we see
I'll take a part of you
You take a part of me
Knowing at a glance
Where we all stand
Searching for another chance
To make us all one
After the fading lights
I felt that we were one
I know I need
Everything we are everything we see
I took a part of you
You took a part of me
Knowing at a glance
Where we all stand
Searching for another chance
To make us all one
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[Music & lyrics: Matheos]
Feeling so strong
I feel so inspired
Like a man with all the words
I could move the world
If I weren't so tired
So, so tired
So, so tired
So
Feeling so proud
I feel so admired
Like a man on a stage
I could play the part
If I weren't so tired
So, so tired
So, so tired
So
Tired of mind
and all I think
Tired of thirst
and all that I drink
Tired of will
and all that I need
Tired of body
and all that I bleed
Tired of breath
and all that I breathe
Tired of heart
and all that I grieve
Tired of sight
and all that I see
Tired of you
and tired of me
Feeling so full
Nothing desired
Like a man with everything
I should be happy
But I'm only tired
So, so tired
So, so tired
So
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I'm lying broken under jagged pieces
Of burned out bridges
Suffocating, I can't breathe
No direction
I'm scattered in the breeze
Living on memories
Everywhere I look
As far as I can see
Broken promises, broken promises
Pieces of me, pieces of me
Pieces of me, pieces of me
I'm drowning, choking
Falling deeper into this
Black hole we call living
And I can't breathe
No connection
I'm scattered in the breeze
Living on memories
Everywhere I look
As far as I can see
Broken promises, broken promises
Pieces of me, pieces of me
Pieces of me, pieces of me
All that I remember now
Are people and shadows
All that I remember now
Are people and shadows
Everywhere I look
As far as I can see
Broken promises, broken promises
Pieces of me, pieces of me
Pieces of me, pieces of me
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[Music: Matheos. Lyrics: Alder]
Some things burden me
These thoughts cut deep
Sometimes I feel
Sometimes I see
I won't close my eyes
I won't look away
We've chased our dreams
We've had our way
Stood here so long
I've forgotten what I was even looking for
Nothing changes
It's all the same if nothing changes, changes
I thought I never needed
Everything I knew was wrong
I never thought I needed so much
I thought I never needed
Everything I knew was wrong
I never thought I needed more
Standing alone
I see what I was looking for, for so long
It's not where I am
It's everywhere I've been and where I'm going
I thought I never needed
Everything I knew was wrong
I never thought I needed so much
I thought I never needed
Everything I knew was wrong
I never thought I needed more
Take....take from nothing
Take....take from everything
Take....take from nothing
Make it, make it, make it something
So it's more, so much more than I need
So much more, so much more
I thought I never needed
Everything I knew was wrong
I never thought I needed so much
I thought I never needed
Everything I knew was wrong
I never thought I needed more
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[Music & lyrics: Matheos]
I had so much to say
but no words to speak
The feelings were strong
but I was only weak
So there we were again
tragic and absurd
choking on every line
And every final word
A few pages from an old diary
a dusty shelf, an unread history
All these words and memories
are all of you that's really left for me
And a fading memory
can't cloud the pain
When the voice is gone
The words still remain
And the years that fall away
can't stop the rains
When illusion's gone
the truth still remains
A few lines from life's long soliloquy
a dying voice in one part harmony
All these words and memories
are all of you that's really left for me
And a fading memory
can't cloud the pain
When the voice is gone
the words still remain
And the years that fall away
can't stop the rains
When illusion's gone
the truth still remains
A final moment of clarity
a touch, a look, a last apology
All these words and memories
are all of you that's left for me
And a fading memory
can't cloud the pain
When the voice is gone
the words still remain
And the years that fall away
can't stop the rains
When illusion's gone
the truth still remains
Where is the way
where is direction
the ever open arms
of over protection
Where is the hope
where is laughter
the wild winter dreams
of happy ever after
Deep in the night
underneath the darkest skies
searching for a sign or some distant light
Screaming yet unheard
repeating every line
and every final word
They remain, they remain
you still remain
All these words and memories
and everything you were to me
they remain, they remain
you still remain
And here I am again
tragic and absurd
repeating every line
and every final word
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