Evergrey Album

From loss into your embrace
I fled the fear and the dark of day
Like an angel of fallen grace
My broken wings can't hold my weight
I came so close that I felt the flames
I came so close that I'll never be safe again
I'd give anything to find a way to leave the fear and evacuate

Come reach inside my inner fear
Come feel my sorrow and my tears
My broken wings can't hold my weight
through the dark of day

Leave that guilt-stained cross behind
Free your arms do it one by one
It's not your fault you are not to blame
Your wing-clipped past should not bring you shame
And the years that you still endured
should work as strength to see past it asll

Come reach inside my inner fear
Come feel my sorrow and my tears
My broken wings can't hold my weight
through the dark of day
All hope's been burnt to ashes
And I'm so tired of hiding the bruises
My broken wings can't take me
through the dark of day

Deep cuts will not help you heal
The pain inflicted's just false relief
Precious moments where you can dream
of a day when you too can feel

Come reach inside my inner fear...

My chest is open
My heart's on the ground
My bare feet soaked in my blood
as I leave you without a sound
No one to reach for even though I stretched too far
No one sky to warm me up
as darkness clouds the blue

I'm leaving
I couldn't live with the shame
No more denying
I've stopped the search for blame
Heading for virgin soil
Set foot on sacred ground
and with no one to reach for
No no one

Twentyseven years of falling
Twentyseven winters slave
Twentyseven years of dreaming
and this is all the strength life gave
Twentyseven summers weaker
and the autumn's just the same
Twentyseven years...

And if you'd ask then I'd deny that
I didn't have the strength to fight that drowning weakness
And I buried all signs to cover what I feel underneath
the hollow remains of me

My chest is open
My heart's on the ground
My bare feet soaked in my blood
as I leave you without a sound
And there will be no tomorrow
Won't see the light of day
No more pain and no sorrow
I'm free from the words that you could say

Twentyseven years of falling
Twentyseven winters slave
Twentyseven years of dreaming
and this is all the strength life gave
Twentyseven summers weaker
and the autumn's just the same
Twentyseven years...

I have forsaken you
and all I ever felt was true
To take that step and fall to aim beyond these walls
With hope that the stars align
to get a glimpse of my goal defined
I stare the eyes of my biggest fear
Swallow pride I'll persevere

I fear my heart
Fear my soul
I fear I'm weak
I'm fearing you
I fear the cold
That the world is yours
That I drown your shores
I fear I'm wrong that I don't belong
I fear the cold

All nights of fallen grace
All nights where I lost the trace
All I need is that single hour
Where all doubt's erased
If I could I'd crown myself each day
If I could I'd let myself know I'm okay
If I could I'd throw myself into the flames

But I fear my heart
Fear my soul
I fear I'm weak
I'm fearing you
I fear the cold
That the world is yours
That I drown your shores
I fear I'm wrong that I don't belong
I fear the cold

I wish for dreamless sleep
For something that will keep all thought silent
All screams of inner fear makes control impossible
Tears me open

If I could I'd crown myself each day
If I could I'd let myself know I'm okay
If I could I'd throw myself into the flames

But I fear my heart
Fear my soul
I fear I'm weak, I fear I'm wrong
I fear the cold
That the world is yours
That I drown your shores
I fear I'm wrong and I fear the cold

It's like when kingdoms fall and you're left without a lender
It's like when dreams your all and all you dream is to see her
And everything reminds you of when you were safe in slumber
And the circles you wander grows greater and bigger

So falls the wintersnow
So vivid yet lifeless out of control
Dark days and all that comes with it
what feels like a lifetime mourned
And how I awaited deliverance for what seemed a lifetime lost
And days turn to years

Just like when kingdoms fall and the world feels like the deceiver
Their words of comfort still wont reach me, can't touch me
Inside this self-created shelter where no one sees
Where no one hears
I allow myself to break and really reach to touch the ache

So falls the wintersnow
So vivid yet lifeless out of control
Dark days and all that comes with it
what feels like a lifetime mourned
And how I awaited deliverance for what seemed a lifetime lost
And days turn to years

Shadow casts regrets on the wall
I stand alone when my empire fall
As I complete another lap
I hope I find the day when it all
leads me to my final resting place
Leaves me alone until I feel safe
Opens me up until I confide
in a world where I don't collide

So falls the wintersnow
So vivid yet lifeless out of control
Dark days and all that comes with it
what feels like a lifetime mourned
And how I awaited deliverance for what seemed a lifetime lost
And days turn to years

Was it just a phase
Was it all a lie
Your first mistake
Have I been blind
When words mean nothing
lack value and weight
All we have is nothing
what does nothing weigh

Lost my will to see it clear
Lost my sense of clarity
I'm standing in ruins and watch us fade
All just because of a lie

I told you in confidence
and trusted you'd never sacrifice our silence
I rise from the ashes and remains of your broken promises

Don't know if you ever were
Don't know if you ever will
be someone I could trust
there's too much doubt to kill
So was it just a phase
was it all a lie
My first mistake
but last being blind

I told you in confidence
and trusted you'd never sacrifice our silence
I rise from the ashes and remains of your broken promises
Cause I would never betray my trust and words no never
I rise from the ashes and remains of your broken promises

Lost my will to see it clear
Lost my sense of clarity
I'm standing in ruins and watch us fade
All just because of a lie

I told you in confidence
and trusted you'd never sacrifice our silence
I rise from the ashes and remains of your broken promises

Was your wish that I hadn't seen you
When they came to take you away?
Was your wish that I would believe you
To make you stop and make you stay?
Did you think that I'd never leave you?
That I'd be there from dusk till day?
Did you think that I'd always save you
And carry you on my arms through the falling rain?

And how can you deny me hope and ...
And how we should rise to see you walk the water?
Can you deny my hopes when ...
Cause all you really did was just to make it hurt

Did you think of all the blame that you left me with?
Did you think of all the guilt that I now feel?
I thought that I was as close as someone ever get
I was so wrong to think that I knew you
So now I relive that moment every day
Asking forgiveness for the things that I never got to say
And how will I ever rid the thoughts or even make them fade ...
Away?

How can you deny me hope and ...
And how we should rise to see you walk the water?
Could you forsake all hope to fail?
And all you really ever achieved was to make me fall into the water

And how could you give up the chance to make this work again?
And why, cause all you really did was just to make us fall ...
Into the water

Would you not offer me a chance to prove I'm changed?
And how... cause all you really did was just to make us fall ...

Give me a reason why I'd follow you
One single hour where I become you
Unjust prophecies
Uncalled for enemies
And all those nights of anguished sleep
Where you wish that someone heard
You've become numb to the world
But you're not alone

So have you ever
felt like I feel
Wounded and never
got a chance to heal
And have you ever
been through what I've been through
Still breathing...

So please hear my words
as I'm begging you to heal my wounds,
heal my wounds I'm bleeding through
I never saw it in the eyes of you
and what I felt was always true

Unjust prophecies
Uncalled for enemies
And all those nights of anguished sleep
Where I wish that someone heard
I've become numb to the world
and I've become you

Have you ever
felt like I feel
Wounded and never
got a chance to heal
And have you ever
been through what I've been through
Still breathing, still breathing

Unjust prophecies
Uncalled for enemies
And all those nights of anguished sleep
Where you wish that someone heard
You've become numb to the world
But you're not alone
No you're not alone
So have you ever stood where I stand
My only wish is you'd understand
And have you ever gone through
what I've gone through
Still breathing, still breathing

I'm walking through fields of the fallen alone in silence
I'm praising their courage I envy their loss
My steps leaves marks of another forsaken soul
My choices might haunt me forever
Until I'm gone

With so much lost in anger
Too much built-up fear and all these thoughts colliding
Making my wounds seem fatal
Pushing my head under water
Making me tired and torn
If only things were different, only things were different

My soul and my inside's been coloured
and there is no silence
Not distant from courage I'm wearing the loss
My eyes sees the dawn of another horizon
My battle it rages forever

With so much lost in anger
Too much built-up fear and all these thoughts colliding
Making my wounds seem fatal
Pushing my head under water
Making me tired and torn
If only things were different
If only things were brought to me in a different shade
Shown to me so that I could relate
Lock all doors that would make me stray
and offer me a brand new day
Never claimed to be someone I'm not
and always feared to be forgotten
So led astray that I lost all worth
So torn by wounds in a world of hurt

With so much lost in anger
Too much built-up fear and all these thoughts colliding
Making my wounds seem fatal
Pushing my head under water
Making me tired and torn
If only things were different if only things were
If only things were different if only things were ...

Been poisoned in the blood-red sea
I've fallen out of reach
It's coloured by the mix of tears and the open wounds of thousand
Devoured by the strength of waves that feels like flames of fire
Enslaved by years in nothingness
I surrender to the silence

And when I'm reaching
you're just turning
Your hands are gone when I try to reach for them

Today you died for me
Today you set me free
But the scars you caused will stay
Nothing is erased, no nothing
You claim it's not your fault
You say you're not to blame
But even though you died today
Nothing is erased
No nothing

Did you really think that we would cope forever
Maybe you never stopped to think at all
The scars that we wear were not self-inflicted
It was your words that caused our fall

Today you died for me
Today you set me free
But the scars you caused will stay
Nothing is erased, no nothing
You claim it's not your fault
You say you're not to blame
But even though you died today
Nothing is erased
No nothing

And when I'm reaching
you're just turning
Your hands are gone when I try to reach for them

Today you died for me
Today you set me free
But the scars you caused will stay
Nothing is erased, no nothing
You claim it's not your fault
You say you're not to blame
But even though you died today
Nothing is erased
No nothing

What if I would say I'm different
What if I would say I've changed
Would it really doesn't matter
I'm just asking for some faith
And if you'd give your heart I'd take it
To never ever break it
But the scars you caused remains
and nothing is erased

I know you see me
you always did
As you close your eyes
you make me fade
Do you ever wonder if I sleep at night
If I sit in silence
or think you're right

I can not share your feelings
Your feelings of belonging
Never pretend I'm something
even if all doors are closing

Try to shine as much as you can
Don't be a burden and they will understand
I've tried to be just as much as I could
Tried not to scream as loud as maybe I should

I can not share your feelings
Your feelings of belonging
Never pretend I'm something
even if all doors are closing
Won't deny that if I had the strength to
I'd be one of you
Even if the world was different
Even if my heart was made of stone
Even though I know I'm different
I'd still walk alone

I can not share your feelings
Your feelings of belonging
Never pretend I'm something
even if all doors are closing
I can not share your feelings
even if all doors are closing
I still walk alone
even if all doors are closing

I walk towards the setting sun
I'll prove to them that I am one
enslaved by their hearts so torn
Cause their demands needs more than so

And when I'm weak then I can't run
must prove to them that I'm strong
Considering what I've been through
Another cut another wound

What's the point of touching it
So close you almost taste it
What's the point of reaching for it
when all doors are closing
And I wish I could feel it
that feeling of belonging
Instead I'm sentenced to solitude
and all doors are closing

Through endless nights of anguished sleep
with no one there to hear her screams
She's gone beyond where they can't reach
The bell of freedom sets her free
And when I'm weak then I can't run
must prove to them that I am strong
Can't hide these scars
Can't hide these wounds

What's the point of touching it
So close you almost taste it
What's the point of reaching for it
when all doors are closing
And I wish I could feel it
that feeling of belonging
Instead I'm sentenced to solitude
and all doors are closing

I too have fallen helplessly
Spent a thousand nights sleepless
Had every hope of light shattered before me
Preventing me to reach outside
Stopping me from leaving the blind
Keeping me locked inside
and all I can ask is why

And when I'm weak then I can't run
must prove to them that I'm strong
Considering what I've been through
Another cut another wound

What's the point of touching it
So close you could almost taste it
What's the point of reaching for it
when all you get is more distant from surface
And what's the point to be strong enough
gather strength and rise above
To be brave and see it through
When all you get is more distant from surface

Never been so unsure
Never felt so torn
in a way, I've been blind
should have seen, should have known
the shallow myths of you

cant believe I put my trust in you
cant believe I opened up for you
in a way, I've been blind
lost my words, lost my way
but I was led

Did you think it would pass unnoticed
with the hope id be caught in your lie
was your wish that I'd be the only

with the nails sinking in through my palms
and the weight of deceit on my arms
gazing out at a sky, that pained me just like fire
and I know, salvation reached the liars

wont confront the reasons behind the failure
cause they're trying to make me find the way you are behind the
deceiving eyes pretending

your not it, you're not him

Did you think it would pass unnoticed
with the hope id be caught in your lie
was your wish that I'd be the only
who's worth your sacrifice?