 [Chorus]
I'm going through changes
I'm going through changes
[Eminem]
Lately I really feel like I'm rolling for Delph like Philly
Feel like I'm losing control of myself, I sincerely
Apologize if all that I sound like is I'm complaining
But life keeps on complicating, and I'm debating
On leaving this world this evening, even my girls
Can see I'm grieving, I try and hide it
But I can't, why do I act like I'm all high and mighty
When inside, I'm dying, I am finally realizing I need help
I can't do it myself, too weak, two weeks I've been having ups and downs
Going through peaks and valleys, dilly dallying
Around with the idea of ending this shit right here
I'm hating my reflection, I walk around the house trying to fight mirrors
I can't stand what I look like, yeah, I look fat, but what do I care?
I give a fuck, only thing I fear is Hailie
I'm afraid if I close my eyes then I might see her
Shit..
[Chorus]
[Verse 2]
I lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom, napping at noon
Yeah dad's in a bad mood, he's always snapping at you
Marshall what happened that you can't stop with these pills
And you've fallen off with your skills and your own fans are laughing at you
You've become a problem you're too pussy to tackle, get up
Be a man, stand, a real man would have had this shit handled
Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed
They say Proof just flipped out, homie just swift out and bust
Nah, it ain't like Doody to do that
He wouldn't fucking shoot at nobody, he'd fight first
But dwelling on it only makes the night worse
Now I'm popping Vic's, Percs and Methadone pills
Yeah Em, tight verse, you killed it
Fucking drug dealers hang around me like "yes men"
And they gon' do whatever I says when, I says it
It's in their best interest to protect their investment
And I just lost my fucking best friend, so fuck it, I guess then...
[Chorus]
Don't know what I'm gonna do, but I just keep on going through changes...
[Verse 3]
My friends just can't understand this new me
That's understandable man, but think how bananas you'd be
You'd be an animal too, if you were trapped in this fame and caged in it like a zoo
And everybody's looking at you, what you want me to do
I'm starting to live like a recluse and the truth is
Fame's starting to give me an excuse to be at a all time low
I sit alone in my home theater, watching the same damn DVD
Of the first tour, the last tour, he was still alive
And it hurt, so I fast forward, sleeping pills will make me feel alright
And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night
I just take a couple more, yeah you're motherfucking right
I ain't slowing down for no one, I am almost homeward bound
Almost in a coma, yeah homie come on, dull 'em out
Daddy, don't you die on me, daddy, better hold your ground
Fuck, don't I know the sound of that voice
Yeah baby, hold me down...
[Chorus]
[Verse 4]
Wake up in the hospital, full of tubes, plus somehow I'm pulling through
Swear when I come back I'ma be bulletproof
I'ma do it just for Proof, I think I should state a few
Facts, cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth
Shit, it just hit me that what if I would not have made it through
I think about the things I would never got to say to you
I'd never get to make it right, so here's what I came to do
Hailie this one is for you, Whitney and Alaina too
I still love your mother, that will never change
Think about her every day, we just could never get it together
Hey, wish there was a better way, for me to say it
But I swear on everything, I'd do anything for her on any day
There are just too many things, to explain, when it rains
Guess it pours, yes it does, wish there wasn't any pain
But I can't pretend there ain't, I ain't placing any blame
I ain't pointing fingers, heaven knows I never been a saint
I know that it feels like we just pissed away our history
And just today, I looked at your picture, almost if to say
I miss you self-consciously, wish it didn't end this way
But I just had to get away, don't know why
I don't know what else to say, I guess I'm...
[Chorus]
Don't know what I'm gonna do, but I just keep on going through changes...
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