Cursive Album

I'll try to make this perfectly clear
I'm so transparent I disapear
these words I lyrically defecate
upon songs I boldly claim to create
clint steps in to establish the beat
4/4 hip hop and you don't stop
this unique approach to start an EP
intended to shock, create a mystique
a cheap strategy, a marketing scheme
building awareness for the next LP
they've got a good fan base
they've got integrity
they've got a DC sound
Shudder to Think, Fugazi
and Chapel Hill Around The Early 90's
this is the latest from saddle creek

some melodies are like disease
they can inflame your misery
they will infect your memories
they haunt me
some memories are like disease
they can inflame your misery
they will infect your melody
they haunt me

I write these words with my motherly intuition
I shape these sounds into harmonic aparitions
but I can see can see through these haunting things
my moldy dreams are debased by the same hands that shaped them

I'll try to make this perfectly clear
I'm so reflexive i am a mirror
these words I'm driving into the ground
the same words I scream out over the crowd

I'm just an airwave rolling around
I storm and crash without a sound
There's all these islands out at sea
I can't reach

I'm just an airplane diving down
I storm and crash without a sound
engines exploding silently out at sea
where waves caress unstable egos
where melody is completely swallowed
where songwriters chain their songs
to their ankles and
sink to the beat
'til it stops and
bursts under pressure
let it
burst and bloom
hit song
let it burst and bloom

This is the bed that i have made
This is the grave where i will lay
These are the hands where i will bury my face

I dont believe in wasting time
Searching for truth you never find
Nobody moves we live in the great decay

All these ghost towns share a name
Anywhere, usa
All these strangers look the same
Day after day after day
This great decay, the great decay
From birth to the grave

And ive seen what it can do
And im afraid its got me to
Cause i can feel it suck me in
Cause i can feel im losing grip

Day after day its static life
Week after week is sacrificed
Month after month you meditate
All of the years that waste away
This is the life that i embrace
This is the world that i create
Falling into the great decay
Give in, give in, give up

All these verses share a theme
(of the great decay)
We dont amount to anything
Its the day after bloodsucking day
This great decay, this great decay, this great decay
Decay, this great decay, this great decay, this great decay
Asleep in your grave

now and again youll remember the sound
of the sails waving helpless
the cables wrapping one another into knots so strong
youre lost at once if not tossed into the drink and lost beneath
a substance so dark yet elementary
four winds converge upon a point where your compass
spirals round in useless motions mocking everything
while bilge collects
your cupped hands attempt to shovel out the last few inches
and you plead with the gods but they send you no sign
hold on sailor, hold on brother
steady the vessel
tall tales of ghosts at sail
they spend the afterlife
In futile calculation, dead reckoning
telltales confuse the sails, direction is lost
the winds will spiral round a listless tapestry
and you're left all alone under the shine of the moon
hold on sailor, tighten the cables
steady the vessel
It's a good life if you dont weaken
hold on, hold on

your navel is yearning for an extension - a ghost limb
it cant detach from mothers loving grasp
your starving - its burning for the nutrient it cant have
were all cut off alone and lost
calling out to homebase, do you read me?
(emergency: were floating endlessly)
transmission terminated
youve been created, severed from life and limb
stranded an infant
on the front step of the universe
infinitely searching for a warmth
once loved, now lost forever
mothership mothership do you read me?
does anyone hear my siren song?
maybe ill be rescued before too long
calling out to homebase one last time
(the signal faded out the ship is gone)
still starving for the reason
you were created
then severed from life and limb
stranded an infant
on the front step of the universe
infinitely searching for a warmth
once loved
now lost forever

Let's pretend were not needy.
Let's pretend our hearts still beat.
Let's pretend we fall in love tonight,
Clumsy enough to fall for anything.
We'll stumble on our words.
We'll spill our guts on creaking bar stools,
Below the neon blue.
Low lives hiding in dives there's no feeling in drinking, sleeping with strangers.
Ghosts passing through bedrooms unaware,
A faint reflection on the barback's mirror,
A face I never knew whispering,
"Please dont be a stranger to me. Who are you if you're alone?"
You're no good at pretending.
All my plays have tragic endings,
You wish I was a fairy tale.
This frog will never change anything.
Just pretend that you're in love,
That scolding sun is bound to come up eventually.
So who is it that whispers in your ear?
A haunting voice blows in through the window.
There's no feeling floating over beds,
A needy pleading apparition
Crying, "Who am I if I'm alone?
I hardly exist at all.
Let's pretend that we don't need anything anymore from anyone.
I don't want to feel anything anymore let's just pretend, we'll live happily ever after."