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Under this crushing wait, I'm sinking
It never goes away, the thinking
Echoes in empty rooms decaying
Alone to face the rest of me
So long sentiment
It doesn't matter now
What the hell is wrong with me?
Why am I torturing myself?
Inhaling all these memories
Like a breath of fire sent from hell
Lead in my gut, not in my spine
I feel distracted all the time
Well lucky me I'm finally all alone
I'll miss you
So long Sentiment
It doesn't matter now
What the hell is wrong with me?
Why am I torturing myself?
Fixated on these memories
Like a prisoner inside a cell
With nothing useful to say and no one to listen to it
Filling the deep with the pain, I slowly sink into it
Consider questionable things to try to get me through it
I've tried to push it away but I always give into it
Long for the taste of the rain that finally helps subdue it
And washes this all away
Under this crushing wait, I'm sinking
It never goes away, the thinking
Echoes in empty rooms are saying
'Time to erase the rest of me'
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So here we go again
You're opening your mouth before you think
Your insincerities are clinging to me like the stench of your last drink
Did I really hear you say you're sorry?
Hard for me to believe
I don't get how you're buying your own story
You're piss broke emotionally
I'm watching
Listening
The volume's always the same
Actions speak louder than words do
I don't want to hear dead words from you
Actions speak louder than words do
I just want to see what you will do
So here it comes again
A deafening parade of duplicity
Birds falling from the sky
The air is poisoned by the breath you waste on me
The thought of you has become so disappointing
Hard for you to believe?
You never seem to fail to change the stories
You so effortlessly breed
It's time to play again
Deception is your game
But why would you want to wear that shame?
It speaks louder than words
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I’m pacing inside this empty room
Told to wait til my life’s withdrawn
Uneasy, I’m waiting here anxiously
It’s a waste and I won’t wait another Eon
Endless night
Long for light
My head against this tomb
And pushing through
I’m pushing through
Facedown and pushing through
Trapped and isolated
Time is dislocated
Eternity is what a moment seems
When I can’t feel anything
Erasing my final memories
They won’t stop til my whole life’s gone
Uneasy, I wait for normality
It’s a waste and I won’t wait another Eon
When life is gone without a trace
And hope is lost in time’s embrace
I won’t wait or hesitate; I’m pushing through facedown
I won’t wait or hesitate; I’m pushing through…
If time’s a song, I won’t wait for its reprise
I am done wishing farewells and goodbyes
I won’t let this place overshadow my birthright
I won’t wait another Eon
Impatiently, I’m cutting through the earth in front of me
Bone on stone, blood and sweat married
Can’t hear the voice that whispers fears when my heart is pounding in my ears
All I see in my mind is not what I’ve left behind
But all the things I’ve been missing in that lost Eon
Trapped and isolated
Time is dislocated
Eternity is what a moment seems
When I am lost inside this dream
When I can’t speak and I can’t scream
And I can’t feel anything
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Sit down and shut up I don’t want to hear a word come out of your mouth. Why won’t you listen to me?
You’re dreaming - outside life’s great but inside you’re screaming
It’s not how you thought it would be?
(Aimlessly)
Are you hoping for something?
(Patiently)
Waiting for some sign?
(Mindfully)
It’s time to jump in or simply get the hell out
(Finally)
I think you better make up your mind
Your perfect world
Has been upset
And this is the best it’s gonna get
C’mon, get up shake it off and work your way beyond the fallout
But you still won’t listen to me
You’re screaming – Bam! the smack of the truth wakes you from your dreaming
So inconveniently
(Irony)
It sucks that it was all for nothing
(Painfully)
Your plans were redesigned
(Mournfully)
It’s a shame you didn’t stand for something
(Finally)
Now it’s too late to make up your mind
Your life’s been overated
Hopelessly complicated
You can keep your fame and you can
Keep your money
Keep your beauty
It’s a shame how long you’ve waited
Constantly constipated
So grab your knees and clench your teeth and
Reap your glory
Reap your glory
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This flame is coalescing
This fire's burning bright
I know I’ll get burned but it’s alright
(Waiting anxiously)
It’s too late to change direction
I’m fixed on her in my mind
Trade sense for sensation this time
(Takes control of me)
I can’t wait
I want to be with you right now anyway
Reckless, so what? I can’t wait to be around you
Take me, break me, right now - Why wait til ‘hell to pay’?
So dumb, so what? I can’t wait to be around you
Her skin is laced with poison
Her words are laced with lies
Affliction is waiting in her eyes
(Take them willingly)
I can’t control this compulsion
Like a moth into the flame
Her fiery embrace completes my shame
(Don’t let go of me)
We bathe in this denial
Lay bare the secret place
For just a little while
Submit to this embrace
Pain unfolding
Shame beholding
Don’t let go of me
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Payback is overdue
So much for the I.O.U.
My head is stuck underneath God’s thumb
I guess that makes me the lucky one
Stupidity is a constant trend
Murphy and I have become best friends
Hooray for dreams gone before they’ve come
Hooray for me I’m the lucky one
I am the lucky one
I am a comedian
the jokes on me, I’m the lucky one
A sinking ship, holes in my lifeboat
I’m sorry for choking but I’ve got a wishbone stuck in my throat
I never thought this could be such fun
Hooray for me I’m the lucky one
I tried to jump straight through the suck
Headfirst but now my freakin head is stuck
I’m feeling like a stupid schmuck
Lucky for me I don’t believe in luck
Thank God I don’t believe in luck
Rusted linings on my black clouds
It’s raining piss, will somebody tell me what’s that all about?
Wish on a Blackstar until it comes
It’s here for me, I’m the lucky one
I am the lucky one
I am only human
I guess that makes me the lucky one
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You must have wished on it
Because I saw them riding in on a Blackstar
They’d rather chew than spit
And they’re full of piss and vinegar
There’s no way to persuade them to give up their crusade
They’ve come to grant the wish you should have never made
Sing Hallelujah because you can’t change anything
They’ll let you try
To reverse everything
Don’t waste your time
Sing Hallelujah because you can’t change anything
They move without a sound
And their eyes will paralyze who gaze into
They’ll leave you gagged and bound
To the whip of the wish they’ve granted you
Looks like they’re over it?I saw them riding off on a Blackstar
With nothing left to chew, they split
Because it makes no difference who you are
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It's not a question of why and if she'll make it
It's more a question of when and how She'll take it
Standing out there alone completely naked
Another secret's been kept and left her tainted
There's nothing more she can do to make them change it
She does the best that she can to rearrange it
There's still the question of how she's grown so tainted
A tattered canvas unfurls, watch as they paint it
She's at the edge of the world
She's there standing alone
She's the loneliest girl
And now she finally feels like she's coming home
Slowly fading and decaying
Please ignore what they're saying
She fought them bravely until defenses caved in
Pressing their teeth to her neck until she gave in
Now there's no question this girl is well acquainted
With suffering in a world that's left her tainted
She's at the edge of the world
She's there standing alone
She's the loneliest girl
And now she finally feels like she's coming home
(She's just done what she's been told
Her heart is turning to stone
Here at the end of this girl
It's time she finally feels like she's coming home)
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(Fight!)
(Fight!)
Get back up, what are you waiting for this time?
I'm over playing with this plight
But I'm still handcuffed, ball-gagged, facedown to the floor
And I'm waiting while I'm hating what I'm waiting for
It's time to take ahold of what belongs to me
It's time to walk away with no apologies
These voices in the mirror start quietly
And now they're screaming back at me
(Don't back down)
Holding on until my hands and mind are bleeding
(Don't back down)
This is my birthright
(Don't back down)
I'm so sick of feeling like I'm helpless
(Don't back down)
This is over tonight
Don't back up, your ass is to the wall again and
Aren't you sick of wasting so much time?
And yes it's true you're a fool if you think you were born
To be waiting while you're hating what you're waiting for
It's time to take ahold of what belongs to me
It's time to walk away with no apologies
These voices in the mirror start quietly
And now they're screaming back at me
(Don't back down)
Holding on until my hands and mind are bleeding
(Don't back down)
This is my birthright
(Don't back down)
I'm so sick of feeling like I'm helpless
(Don't back down)
This is over tonight
How could have I been so earthbound
With my heart in the depths and my face in the ground?
It's time to uproot myself and move on
How could have I been making sound
When my mouth and my lungs had both fused to the ground?
It's time to uproot myself and move on
The voices in my head have all begun to sing
(The voices in your head have all begun to sing)
And they sure as hell hope I am listening
(I sure as hell hope you are listening)
It's time to take ahold of what belongs to me
It's time to walk away with no apologies
These voices in the mirror start quietly
And now they're screaming back at me
(Don't back down)
Holding on until my hands and mind are bleeding
(Don't back down)
This is my birthright
(Don't back down)
I'm so sick of feeling like I'm helpless
(Don't back down)
This is over tonight
Over tonight, this is over tonight
Tonight
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